How much can one person LOVE?

Today is Mother's day and I have had one fantastic day. Yet, I wasn't able to spend it with my kids and my husband or my mom, I did get to spend it with my kids and my mother-in-law, which made it a GREAT day! Now that Erik is home and the kids are in bed, I got some 'think' time. Out of all the things I could be thinking about or worried about, the only thing I can think of is how much I love my family. My children make me smile, they love me, they need me, I love them, and I need them just like they do me. I never thought in a million years that I would EVER love anyone as much as I love those 2 little kids. Sometimes I still look at them and think how crazy it is that they are half of me and half of Erik... and look how beautiful they are. I have never seen anyone or anything more beautiful in my life. I have never been more proud of anything or anyone is my life. I am so proud of everything they are, everything they do... I love how smart they are, how caring they are, and how loving they are. They're my children, my whole heart... they have all of me... they speak, I listen, and melt. There is NOTHING in the this world that would EVER make me NOT love them!

So that brought me to my question I kept asking myself... how much can I love, and what is it worth? I feel like I couldn't love them anymore than I do at this very moment... yet, everyday I love them more and more. Does that make sense? Probably not, but I know what I mean! hahaha But how much is love worth? It's worth everything as some say, but what can you compare it to? There is no comparison to what I feel for my kids and Erik... nothing. I would lay my life on the line to save my children... if it meant me leaving right now to go to my death bed... I'm gone... no questions asked. The only good thing about leaving them forever though is... I leave knowing that they know how much I love them. I don't let a day pass or a moment pass without telling them how much I love them and how complete they have made me! My kids are my life... my every joy... and nothing in this world will ever replace that.

God has blessed my life... and I am sooo thankful!

He sent me the BEST man I have ever met. He's my soulmate... my dream. We have been together 7 1/2 years and it's been amazing. We have had our moments... some really tough and trying times where we split and said hateful things to each other... but I know in my heart I never stopped loving him and I know he never stopped loving me. I remember the phone call I made to him while he was working at staples... he was in another relationship... and I said, I really want to work US out... we have child together and I love you... a few days later she was gone and we worked it out... I knew then, that Erik was mine... and he had my whole heart and I had his. That was such a trying time in our lives, but a time that made us stronger and more dedicated to each other. I hated it in the moment, but I am glad it happened because I know that I could NEVER say good-bye again. I know that Erik and I have a solid relationship...but yet again... how much can I love him??? I love him so much, that the thought of losing him in some form, automatically brings tears to my eyes... Erik has been such a rock for me... my joys, and made my dreams come true. We have given each other the best 2 gifts anyone could ever receive and that's Dylan & Caydence. Erik, you are the best husband and man that I could ever ask for... I am blessed to have you in my life...and I know you are here to stay... I LOVE YOU!!! (and my lord...HE'S GORGEOUS... he's my HOT hubby) :D

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ME!!!! It couldn't be any better than today... I have the man of my dreams and I think he's the best in the whole world... and we have our babies who again ARE THE BEST IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!!! I love you all so much... 'YOU 3 COMPLETE ME!'

I'M A LUCKY MAMA!!!! :)

The Joys of a '2' Year Old!

Today, Caydence turns 2. What a day... what an age?!?! I love it... I love the things she says, does, and the way she acts! There are days where I wonder why I had 2 and days that I think 'if she would have been my first, she may have been my last.' However, the majority of the time, the good out weighs the bad. I love when I say, "Happy Birthday Caydence!" She replies by saying, "Happy Day Mama!" Seriously, how much cuter could it get? She's amazing! She's so much fun, she's so smart, and she makes me melt, as does Dylan! The fun is just beginning however...

The terrible twos are starting to take effect. The tantrums, the hitting, the bitting, etc... oh wait, yeah, she's been doing all that since she was 18 months old. So hopefully we will be growing out of those stages shortly! I hate when she tells me No, or bosses other kids around, but I have to remind myself, it's all part of the age. :)

I can't believe she's 2, to me she seems older by the way she acts, and younger with how time flew by. It doesn't seem possible that she can already be 2, but the words she uses, the things she knows, etc. it seems like she should be at least 3!

Time flies... I love every minute of being with her... of being her mom... and spending time with her. I am blessed. I have the best husband who works so that I can stay home with my children and attend school. He helps make my dreams come true and makes my life so complete...I hope he realizes how special he is to me and to our kids and that's he's truly the BEST man I could ever imagine! I'm a very lucky person... he loves me and loves our kids and that's the best gift anyone could ask for! I love you Erik!!!! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAYDENCE!!! We Love you!

Some Parents Parenting....

Parenting is an issue I take to heart... for many reasons. 1) I want my children to be respectful, well liked, and well behaved children. 2) I want my children to know right from wrong 3) It builds and shapes the futures of our children, and many many more to name. Another issue I take to heart are the parents who DON'T PARENT!!! Dylan plays Northeast Concord baseball and I think he does a good job of it. He tries really hard, but most importantly he has FUN. Isn't that why they have it in the first place for 4, 5, & 6 year olds? They don't make allstars that young so I don't see what the big deal is. Everyone is learning and trying to better their skills. Some kids aren't as good as others... and since when did laughing at another child become an appropiate thing for other children to be doing? That's where that lovely parenting roll comes in. Nothing burns me more than a parent allowing another child to get away with that, especially when the child being laughed at IS MY OWN!!! I have no problem opening my big mouth and telling someone off and I have no problem opening my big mouth and telling another child to shut theirs. If their parent isn't going to take care of the problem, I will do it! Then I'd be first in line to tell that parent where to go too... because at no time is it ever okay for a child to make fun of another because they can't hit a pitch and need the tee. One thing I will always stand my ground and do is take up for my children... no questions asked, I don't care who I am standing up to. I wasn't there last night at baseball practice because Kelly and I were coaching t-ball, so this is all from Erik, but you can bet your tail I will be at the ball game tomorrow at 8am and if he is being laughed at, so help me lord... I will make a scene... I will drag him out and take him home before I allow another child to purposely hurt his feelings. He's my little boy and I love him and I am soooooo very proud of him... he deserves to be out there with the rest of the children and I will make that known if need be!

Okay, done venting now...

Go Dylan!!! #6